Sometimes my mind’s not right.
So I sit and I write.
With endless thoughts coming out.
Silently but it shouts.
Screaming for change.
Thirsting for anything.
Seeking but not finding.
Potential is really blinding.
My heart just isn’t in it.
Shut down and abort the mission.
Till the next time.
Should there be a common one to find.
I breathe without thinking.
Same way I operate on a daily living.
What have I become?
I’m usually not the one.
To turn down fun.
But now I run.
Shelter in place.
Get out of my face.
I don’t have time to deal with your shit today.
I’m not in the mood.
Yours is killing mine too.
Let’s separate to keep the peace.
Why can’t this be easy?
Encouraging it seems to be.
To be the strongest version of me.
Diversions they seem.
To divert the truths.
What’s the use?
When there’s always an excuse?
The drive to avoid the distance.
The time that it takes to conquer and divide.
Is too long so we see some resistance.
Giving up ain’t in my blood.
I’ll bleed out until I’m done.
The reality is that there’s still more.
More to explore.
More to endure.
This can’t be the best version of me.
I continue along the self-realization journey.
I encourage you all to join me.