I’m not at my best.
This is hard to confess.
Yet when I look up in the mirror.
I see a fucking broken mess.
There’s things I wish I handled better.
Signs that I should get myself together.
I don’t quite understand the way I operate.
There’s levels inside that I must learn to navigate.
Unlock the triggers that set me off.
The train is wrecking but maybe it could stop.
If I just sit and think of how to calm my mind.
The mechanisms in place don’t work all the time.
They say to breathe in and out and in again.
They say to take a walk, don’t let the demons win.
They don’t deny that the demons lie within.
That’s darkness talking, light must overcome this.
The problem is that darkness there is pretty strong .
He takes the light and makes it seem all wrong.
It’s easy to turn my back when I’m just going along.
Stuck in this zombie stage, can’t get out of it mode.
Is that because I often tend to lose myself.
To try to please the world and save everyone else?
The changes that need to be made start with me.
Make the decision to figure it out and set myself free.